Briefwisseling en aantekeningen. Deel 2
(1976)–Willem Bentinck– Auteursrechtelijk beschermd
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on what has past, I don't yet see that I could do otherwise than I have done. I know that people who always will find fault, will not spare meGa naar voetnoot1). But there are some occasions where one must take one's part finally, and rather submit to some misrepresentations for a while, however disagreable, than do an imprudent or a wrong thing. I believe that is my case at present. I can assure you that I have acted to the best of my judgment, and have no other business to attend to but that one, I gave it all the attention I was capable of. The worst of all is that I cannot make publick all the reasons which determin'd me, without making myself useless for the future. Those that know the inside of things, even among the Austrians, have nothing to answer to me; I put this morning monsieur ReischachGa naar voetnoot2) quite at a stand: and I intend to go back to Aix next tuesday, thro' the dukes army, to see maréchal Batthyany, to talk the same affair over with him, and ask him upon his honour, what he would have done in my place. When I have been there, I will fairly let you know what he has said to meGa naar voetnoot3). But I am sure beforehand what it will be. Yesterday I made my report to the secret committeeGa naar voetnoot4), and everything that I have done has been entirely approved, I name only myself, because the whole affair was left to me, tho' I made the report in the name of all threeGa naar voetnoot5), notwithstanding monsieur Hasselaer did not know there were any articles drawn, or even preparing, till seven at night; the same evening they were signed at nine. But this between ourselves. I mean you, Charles and TrembleyGa naar voetnoot6). If I was sensible to ungrounded praise, I have had within these three days enough to satisfy the vainest man. But I had much rather have the approbation of three or four on whose judgment and integrity I rely. | |
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This letter is for Charles too. I do not write to him because the greffier sends him copys of all that passed yesterdayGa naar voetnoot7), with relation to the transaction at Aix, to the fate of Maestricht. (Financiële zaken, bemoeienissen ten aanzien van Trembley, etc.). Charles must know that I had writ to the Prince about PallardyGa naar voetnoot8) in the strongest terms (I have kept copy) after having settled the method of finishing that affair, according to my promise before I left The HagueGa naar voetnoot9). But nothing being done hitherto, I have apply'd to the Princess in the first flight of good humour she was in on occasion of the agreable news I brought her, to engage her to make it her affair. And I will see how this will operate, and speak to her again tomorrow. This affair grieves me, and I suffer more for Pallardy than he knows or thinks. I have a point of honour of it. The truth is that there are people in the court of justiceGa naar voetnoot10) who had intention to draw another use out of this affair, and make it serve to attack the pensionaryGa naar voetnoot11) and the old French partyGa naar voetnoot12): and that has embroil'd and spoilt it, but yet it is to be remedy'd, if the Prince would but give the attention due to it for his own honour. But he will do everything himself, and so the three quarters of what ought to be done, remains undone. |
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